st. vincent - flea

I've always been a big fan of her work.  Great new song.

When you start to itch and scratch and scream

Once I'm in you can't get rid of me

Drip you in diamonds, pour you in cream

You will be mine for eternity

 

sunday morning

One reason I started writing on a blog again after years of not doing it was because I wasn't a fan of the Facebook and Instagram experience.  I like the idea of putting something out there, but if your friends are interested in seeing it, they search it out (I wonder what the dork is up to...let me check). I don't want this to be on a feed, ideally.  It's public, but also feels a bit more private.

It also gives me a chance to easier display my odd creative work.  This morning I'm posting a soundscape I wrote a short while ago:  Recovery Modulating.  

And...a not so random thought.  This Wednesday, on May 1st, it will be 7 years of no drinking for me (and I mean not a single sip). I do not say this to be preachy, righteous or to suggest that my life was some disaster when I did drink (I assure you it was not; I frequently had a fucking blast).  For a few very good reasons, though, I knew that that lifestyle was completely unsustainable.  So I quit and, whaddyaknow, I ended up becoming happier than I had ever been before.  I enjoy the discipline and self respect that staying away from alcohol affords me. 

The moral of the story?  Don't fuckin' negotiate with terrorists.  Keep your head together. 

local humor

I walked by this today and thought it was a cool name for a bar.  It's called 신술동, which is right next to 신설동 station. The way they changed the second syllable block to mean 'alcohol' is clever.  King Sejong would be proud.  

thursday

my friend is opening a bar so we went for a visit (a ginger ale there, to be clear).

thursday bullshit

1. After a lot of midterm grading last night I binged Baby Reindeer on Netflix.  It's an interesting drama based on a true story about a man in London who has an obsessed, mentally ill stalker.  It was surprisingly deep and thoughtful with some powerful acting.  Strong recommendation.

2.  Interested in Buddhist meditation?  I really like Thanissaro Bikkhu's work.  I have been a long time listener and fan of his work.  He has an impressive knowledge of the practice and history.  

3.  I have worn my new Nintendo sweatshirt for 3 days in a row because it's so amazing. I will never take it off...not even for your funeral. 

drexl

"Well that makes us practically related."

wankery

 

Just practicing some guitar on top of a loop I made which, though it may sound kind of strange, is also a (very processed) guitar.  I like the sound I came up with there.  

iambic 5 poetry by squarepusher

I had just graduated university and one of my friends gave me a Squarepusher mix tape.  I was staying with my folks in Minneapolis, doing social work and often visiting a local bar close to a lake.  I listened to this track a lot, played Playstation 1 games in the attic, and thought to myself...what the fuck am I gonna do with my life?

how i roll

 

my usual disposition

V

Diana (played by Jane Badler) from the 1984 TV miniseries V might very well have been my first crush ever.  Sweet lord almighty just look at her.

the infinitely re-readable

I talk a lot about fiction here because I think this blog sort of focuses on my creative interests...so far at least (you just wait until I start talking about my kinks and MILF fetishes...I will make this room uncomfortable for everyone).  Believe it or not I do read a fair amount of non-fiction, but these days I've been focused on more colorful storytelling and I don't see that slowing down anytime soon.

I am sometimes asked by friends for a novel recommendation and I'll often suggest this.  Oryx and Crake is the story of two childhood friends and one of their lovers in the setting of a post-apocalyptic world.  It's certainly dark stuff, but it's also captivating and I am hesitant to say much about the plot because the less you know the better.  I'll just say that I think Margaret Atwood understands teenage boys better than I did when I was a teenager.  I'll also say that there was a moment in this book where I clearly remember saying "Holy shit" out loud because it was such a powerful piece of writing. 

One of my close friends recommended this to me years ago and said "it changed my life."  I thought maybe it was just hyperbole but after reading it the first time I thought, Oh, ok I get it. I will always be grateful that he turned me on to this.

grump

Give him what he wants or he will make this face all day.

EDIT: In case it's not clear, he wants ice cream, dummy!

more notes: frank booth

I recently revisited my Criterion copy of Blue Velvet.   I will never not be fascinated with the character of Frank Booth.  He is unhinged, fearless impulse and perversion. Naturally this intrigues me because I'm an impulsive fucking pervert.  

Blue Velvet isn't my favorite Lynch film (that would be either Mulholland Drive or Fire Walk with Me), but I've always thought it's his best, technically speaking.  It has the perfect balance of weirdness and well-crafted crime narrative, but it's also one of Lynch's most accessible flicks. That's...all I have to say.

tonight's film: late night with the devil

Finally got to watch this tonight! I've been waiting to see it and sure enough I loved it.  I live for old school horror and this was fantastic homage while being original in its own way. Big thumbs up.  

more notes (The Gorgon edition)

Because I have some downtime here in the office and you know I like to ramble.  

1) Deadline just reported that Tarantino has dropped The Movie Critic as his final film and he won't be doing it now.  That's too bad as I thought the story sounded like an interesting change of style for him.  My feelings on his films have fluctuated over the years and I find myself enjoying his work now more than I did in the past.  Perhaps this is an unpopular opinion, but I now think that Once Upon a Time in Hollywood is his best film.  Yes, even better than the amazing Pulp Fiction.  The dialogue in Hollywood is just soooo damn good. I love those characters.  

2) I am thrilled to hear that one of my best friends is moving back to Korea this summer along with his wife.  Homeboy and I are very close (we met 20 years ago my first week in this country) and I can't wait to see him again.  We talk every week and this has been a great new development.  

3) The other day at my daughter's house I put on a classic Hammer horror film from 1964: The Gorgon.  I love that Youtube has so many films and my premium service is one of the few I own which I have no qualms paying for.  The Gorgon is just classic Peter Cushing/Christopher Lee fare and I love it for its haunted house atmosphere.  

alan moore

I can only hope to look as cool as Alan Moore when I hit that age.  He is a living wizard.  I can listen to this guy talk about writing forever.

suwon nights

I took this photo in February of 2008.  It may look photoshopped, but the sky was really that color.  I had just bought a new DSLR and went out very late with some friends to get some cool shots.    This is at Hwaseong Fortress, not far from where I lived at the time.  

fallout

I just started the new TV series Fallout.  It's creative, visually strong, and I'm happy to see the solid reviews.  I was sort of worried because of prior game to TV/Movie adaptions (I thought The Last of Us was terribly uninteresting).  But it's a lot of fun...and Ella Purnell is very easy on the eyes.  

I played my first Fallout game back on the Xbox 360 (Fallout 3) many years ago.  I loved the DC wasteland and, after a steep learning curve, I ended up enjoying the combat mechanics.  I had never played anything like that up to that point.  Fallout 4 was equally fun, but '76 was a bit of a mess and I couldn't connect to it.  Anyhoo, let's see if this has some meat on its bones.

morning talk

I am very much a morning person.  Obnoxious and insufferable, I know!  I woke up, put the finishing touches on a new track, and am having my coffee.  So here is a little mellow song for you:  Early Morning.  Once again I used a lot of the Korg Triton on this track. I still haven't really explored this beyond the presets too much so I'll need some more time.  

Also wanted to share what I'm playing these days:  Star Ocean: The Second Story R.  I am absolutely loving it.  It's a remake of an old Playstation 1 JRPG. Very nerdy stuff but old school vibes.  There is something magical about that pixel art and addictive combat that has got me hooked.  

I am continuing Frank Herbert's God Emperor of Dune and am really digging it.  They had me at Leto has morphed into a giant worm and is a brutal ruler.  My kind of jam.

What am I not liking?  Preparing for midterm exams next week.  

saturday lunch spot

Nice lake view out in the countryside.

your daily joke

Wife walks up to her husband and asks, "Do I look fat in this dress?"

Husband: "Before I say anything, you gotta promise, no matter WHAT I say, you won't get mad."

Wife: "Ok, I promise."

Husband: "I fucked your sister."

Carving Knife

Need a good short horror story to read?  Then try this: Carving Knife.  It was written by my good friend Liam Ring.  He is an excellent writer and I have always been incredibly impressed with his work. This isn't simply praise because he's a buddy; his work is genuinely excellent in my opinion.  He has a diction and flow that I really admire.  

Years ago I read his first book, The Tiger Awakens (check it out on your Kindle if you enjoy crime fiction) and he was kind enough to give some of my work a look.

Anyhow, Carving Knife is a quick read and I had a great time with it this morning! I love the creativity. 

new ambient track

Something I started working on a couple of days ago and finished this morning with my (ultra strong) coffee: Blue Atom.  

I used a lot of the Korg Triton emulator on this one, which is new to me.  I heard someone describe the original synth (produced in 1999) saying that it was fantastic for New Age-style music...and they weren't wrong.   There are some great patches there. 

the end of the line